happy 50th merdeka!

my merdeka post. since im so 'hyper' now. haha...

when i mentioned that i went all round kch to snap pix... haha, i did it only when i passed by those area coincidentally la. who wud purposely go to certain certain place and snap pix and then leave, rite? im not tat wuliau la, btw. haha... while driving to work some weeks ago, noticed a few buildings preppin up for aug 31st. and some were actually kinda nice-looking. haha... so here i present u, those that i managed to snap (while driving). haha...

ambank group building at satok area. i tink its the building that's nicer. not so much the deco. haha...

kwsp building? nothing impressive.

again, more to the building, merdeka palace. not the deco. haha...

this one, tsk tsk tsk... wa bo ua kong. hahah... look at the proportion of the jalur gemilang to the whole sultan iskandar building. hmmm...

sarawak museum.

these two, no idea wad building. i know the location, but duno the name of the roads. hahah...

the nicest of all, i personally think so, is this one. see it everyday before turning to my office. wisma mahmud. take a look at the real thing up close, its rili 'wow'. haha... rili!

ok. habis cerita. haha... (ok, i was very free the past weeks. haha).

and last but not least, the ones i captured months back when i was in melaka (yum yum... chick rice!)

hehe... patriotiknyee me! LOL...

no more liau, sketchbook goin idle for real liau this time. hehe...

'my best fren's wedding'

29 august, wed.

oki. stayed up whole nite doin HER thing, and now its a quarter to six. im not even sleepy! my gudiness! guess wad i got from a fren who's js came from kl (to go kk with us).

tadaaa...

sumthing least expected! hahaha... so delighted when i got it! hahaha... love the movie, love the song 'say a lil prayer'. haha... hepinyer aku. hahaha =D

kenak criticised!!

ok! its 10mins to midnite, and im flyin tomolo! hahaha... hepi hepi me!

my gudiness, whole day in office - UNPRODUCTIVE! very very very the holiday mood liau. din even manage to finish ONE job! haha. lucky there werent much job to do, cos everyone's in hols mood. so nobody rushing for anytg! pheewww! hahaha.. was practically 'touching' the same page, same layout, same file, ober n ober n ober again! hahaha...

hmmmph. SOMEBODY 'criticised' me in a blog! terible nyerrr.... DIRECTLY leh! hak si the bejeebers outta me when i TERcame across the orangey coloured text! omost had my eyeball fell out of place! hahah. paiseh si me. mafaan... but funny wor! hahahaha... (but i was granted the permission bah...) hehe. my gudiness!

ah, before i forget, anyone in kl this merdeka day?? if too free, n nothing much to do... do go and join my sis' church's youth conference. haha... http://chc.org.my/emerge.my/ for more infos. btw, my sis' in the cheerleading ler. haha... like she said, "kenak flip by ppl, and buang here buang there." hehe... fun eh! ok, quoted from her blog, "Energy - a taiwan band will be here !Liu Geng Hong from Taiwan will also be here !!and if not mistaken, one of the members of F.I.R will be here too !! Hannah Tan, malaysian supermodel.. will be there as well!and alot more super awesome events and suprises !!"

hannah tan ler... hot babe! hehe...

ok. i havent packed. cos flite 3pm. tomolo morning, goin laksa bfast! hahaha.. managed to 'wad' a fren to drive. haha... cos im awfully terible with side parking etc. hahah. and tonite, dun think i'll be sleeping lots. gota help my sis with sumting... hehe. she said, i am her 'god sent angel' worrrr... trying to coax me into helping her, tats y. hmmph. *skeptical look gok... hehe.

ok. needa do HER stuffs liau. AISI!!!!! my supposed merdeka post! aihh,... luks like its not gona happen liau. too bad. been collecting pix all arnd kch for it! haha.. but no time. haihhh....

ok peeps! my sketchbook will be idle til 2nd or 3rd sept lidat... hehe.. so happy merdeka, malaysia... and happy holidays u all! enjoy! and CHEERS!!! hehehehe.... =D AND!! dun drink and drive! HEHEHE...

shifting

hmmm... seems like evytime after my badminton session with my pals, i get some new updates! haha... shocking updates, more like it! haha. one fren quit her job liau while stil in probation period in kl. cannot stand it kua? duno. another fren, shifting to work in australia - quitting his kl job. another one, confirmed shifting to melaka. aiksss! (but like i wrote earlier, im shifting too - to kk in a day's time! hahaha.. yay! for five short days nia nia).

SPEAKING OF WICH! geram mati me here! i NEVER knew this kinda schedule can even happen! our flite to kk was booked months back, i cannot rmbr wen. but months back when a.a. was having the rm9.90 promo thingie, i tink. so we booked back then, supposedly fly 8++ am. then, rounabout two months back, they sent a msg to my fren who did the booking - retimed to 11++ am. fine, im stil ok with it. we'll be reaching stil kinda early anwya. then! today, as i was on my way to bdmntn, tat fren fwded me a msg from a.a. gok - retimed AGAIN. guess to wad time? 3++ PM!!!! my gudiness! where got such thing one! <---- (such broken broken english!) hahaha... but rili, from 8++AM EARLY IN THE MORNING, retimed to 3++PM WORRR! hmmph! wasted my leave nia.

before i forget, few things to note here.

1. i actually enjoy ppl commenting on my posts. hehe... so tq to you all whoever had done so. *nyek! (heheh...)

2. and! the most most most satisfyin response i got today - monday! guess wad? "permission granted to ..." hahahah. its not so much the activity that i am very glad of being permitted, but its more like, how to explain ar? hmmm.. e.g. u tel ppl that u are SURELY gona trouble em, but they grant u the permission to 'trouble' em. haha... paham sik wad im tryin to say here? haha... a sense of 'relief' for me? haha... dun get me, then forget it. hehe

ok! i sounded as if im stating my appreciations here! LOL. but truly, i am. haha...

wad else? i actually hav lotsa things to say. and its past midnite liau. stil very wide awake - 'pua meh ciao', like my dad calls me! haha... its 'midnite bird'. dun even bother askin me why they consider birds very wide awake at nite. i hav no idea. owl, maybe? haha.. oh, just read today's npaper , birds' flu in bali, the city of denpasar - claims the 3rd life liau. jeng jeng! hope it goes away soon...

and, i needa go sleep liau. another '3-hour' long post from me... hehe. jk! o yea, my 2nd nis gona be called Maia, instead of Maya. nice eh? i tot so too. hahahaha... middle name, yet to be finalised! hehe. okie, gudnitie...

gotcha!

yay! 2 more days! haha... yay!

o ya, u can just not know how 'ridiculous' it is to hav a lil bro who has ntg better to do than to try pulling a prank on his sis. he hinted me about hitz.fm's gotcha call thingie, and keep lafing... so i asked him, "u DID NOT email in to gotcha ger (my lil sis), did u?" he said, "nope", and kept lafing... then, (sony.e's skeptical look on me...) i asked again, "ur NOT telling me its me, are u?!" he laf his head off... well, almost off! haha... my gudiness! gota be super aware of phone calls from kl nowadays. wonder wad details he wrote in! apalah! but good thing he mentioned to me. i bet, he was tooo excited about it to kept it all to himself, tats y! hmmmph! just hope they dun layan his email la.

me. i am in the process of compiling pixes for my blog that will be up in a few days' time. haha... for the 1st time, a very patriotic piece! hahaha... LOL. wait n see la. shall be up before 29th. tis is what a too-free-caused-by-a-bad-haircut person does, u see. hahaha...

hmm, time rili flies hor? its been 10 years since princess d's car crash. ter-saw the tv 'documentary' about her js nw over dinner. 10 yrs ago, wen i TER-heard the news in tv, (i heard cos i wasnt facing the tv) had me jumped up and rushed in front of the tv. and i even tot to myself, THIS CANT BE TRUE, can it? too sudden! 10 yrs liau. so fast!

'morphed' too late today, roundabout 7pm and woke up at 8pm. mati! duno how to get myself sleepin liau later! hahaha... cham. oh! went times bookstore the other day, and saw that there's gona be a psp+phone device coming soon, in 2008, if im not mistaken? and if rili FOR REAL. hehe.. meaning, the price for psp gona drop! jeng jeng! ;-) just yahoo-ed, its called psp phone (if rili happens). duh! LOL... so, pear pear, the psp price GONA drop *wink *wink... and my bday's arnd the corner *wink *wink gok. further corner la. haha.

ok. im not gona cont writing liau. later kenak 'hinted' by ppl gok - 'if i were to write a blog tis length, it'll take me 3 solid hours..." sumting like dat? hehe... i duno how to let the pix do the talking mar. tried n tested, but still kenot mar. hehe... oki! as usual, hope u have a very fine & fun week ahead!

~"cheers"~

haha... =P

Five Lessons

Five (5) lessons to make you think about the way we treat people (fwded)

First Important Lesson - Cleaning Lady.
During my second month of college, our professorgave us a pop quiz. I was a conscientious studentand had breezed through the questions until I readthe last one:"What is the first name of the woman who cleans the school?"

Surely this was some kind of joke. I had seen the cleaning woman several times. She was tall,dark-haired and in her 50s, but how would I know her name?I handed in my paper, leaving the last question blank. Just before class ended, one student asked ifthe last question would count toward our quiz grade.

"Absolutely," said the professor. "In your careers,you will meet many people. All are significant. They deserve your attention and care, even if all you dois smile and say "hello."

I've never forgotten that lesson. I also learned her name was Dorothy.

Second Important Lesson - Pickup in the Rain
One night, at11:30 p.m., an older African American woman was standing on the side of an Alabama highway trying to endure a lashing rainstorm. Her car had broken down and she desperately needed a ride. Soaking wet, she decided to flag down the next car. A young white man stopped to help her, generally unheard of in those conflict-filled 1960s. The man took her to safety, helped her get assistance, andput her into a taxicab. She seemed to be in a big hurry, but wrote down his address and thanked him.

Seven days went by and aknock came on the man's door. To his surprise, a giant console color TV was delivered to his home. A special note was attached..It read:"Thank you so much for assisting me on the highway the other night. The rain drenched not only my clothes, but also my spirits. Then you came along. Because of you, I was able to make it to my dying husband's bedside just before he passed away... God bless you for helping me and unselfishly serving others."

Sincerely, Mrs. Nat King Cole.

Third Important Lesson - Always remember those who serve.
In the days when an ice cream sundae cost much less,a 10-year-old boy entered a hotel coffee shop and sat at a table. A waitress put a glass of water in front of him."How much is an ice cream sundae?" he asked. "Fifty cents," replied the waitress. The little boy pulled is hand out of his pocket and studied the coins in it.

"Well, how much is a plain dish of ice cream?" he inquired. By now more people were waiting for a table and the waitress was growing impatient."Thirty-five cents," she brusquely replied. The little boy again counted his coins."I'll have the plain ice cream," he said. The waitress brought the ice cream, put the bill on the table and walked away. The boy finished the ice cream, paid the cashier and left.

When the waitresscame back, she began to cry as she wiped down the table. There, placed neatly beside the empty dish, were two nickels and five pennies.. You see, he couldn't have the sundae, because he had to have enough left to leave her a tip.

Fourth Important Lesson. - The obstacle in Our Path.
In ancient times, a King had a boulder placed on a roadway. Then he hid himself and watched to see if anyone would remove the huge rock. Some of the king's wealthiest merchants and courtiers came by and simply walked around it. Many loudly blamed the King for not keeping the roads clear, but none did anything about getting the stone out of the way.

Then a peasant came along carrying a load of vegetables. Upon approaching the boulder, the peasant laid down his burden and tried to move the stone to the side of the road. After much pushing and straining, he finally succeeded.

After the peasant picked up his load of vegetables, he noticed a purse lying in the road where the boulder had been. The purse contained many gold coins and a note from the King indicating that the gold was for the person who removed the boulder from the roadway. The peasant learned what many of us never understand!

Every obstacle presents an opportunity to improveour condition.

Fifth Important Lesson - Giving When it Counts...
Many years ago, when I worked as a volunteer at a hospital, I got to know a little girl named Liz who was suffering from a rare & serious disease. Her only chance of recovery appeared to be a blood transfusion from her 5-year old brother, who had miraculously survived the same disease and had developed the antibodies needed to combat the illness. The doctor explained the situation to her little brother, and asked the little boy if he would be willing to give his blood to his sister.

I saw him hesitate for only a moment before taking a deep breath and saying, "Yes I'll do it if it will save her." As the transfusion progressed, he lay inbed next to his sister and smiled, as we all did, seeing the color returning to her cheek. Then his face grew pale and his smile faded. He looked up at the doctor and asked with a trembling voice, "Will I start to die right away".

Being young, the little boy had misunderstood the doctor; he thought he was going to have to give his sister all of his blood in order to save her.

Merdeka 2007 - Ad from Petronas - What a daring one!

haha... the 'impact' of petronas' tvc on me - had me searched for the tvc here in youtube, and susah susah link here n there to get it uploaded into my blug. hehe... kinda kelam kabut at 1st. hehe.. enjoy!!

disaster - part II

argh! i just cannot not mention these... (tho its gona prove one point - "i'm sure to expect one long post about it") hate to prove it correct, but too unbearable! haha... LOL. n its not gona be very long i tink.

the lady who had my fringe cut super extra short, CAN rmbr the me who went for a cut the FIRST time, some time a year plus plus ago, and had been speaking mandarin to me ALL THIS WHILE. AND... i rili cannot think of any possible reason as of why she, SUDDENLY change her language of talking to me in the middle of the session! she was suddenly speaking BM! of all lggs! to me! HERH??!!

helo helo? wen i sat down, it was stil mandarin, then all of a sudden, change to BM pulak! of cos, i replied in mandarin, then only she cont in mandarin. i was sooo tempted to ask her,"do i look like a lakia to u?" LOL!!!!! (was actually forcing myself not to giggle rite there n then! my gudness! and im sure my sistaS wud be lafing their heads off reading this!) din ask coz there was another guy nearby, if i were to ask, kinda paiseh la. so i din ask. but herh! u cut my hair sooo short and stil speak BM to me!

tats y, disaster! hahaha... LOL.

do i look like a lakia to u? hmmmm? laf dead me here...

disaster!

24 august 2007.

as u can see, went for a haircut js now, but not in the middle of a park la. haha.. and, the outcome, one word sums it all - DISASTER! i am sooooo not meeting anyone (yea rite, as if i can!) til im back from sabah! (gud thing my booking was for next sunday! LOL!!!)

* im learning to 'let the visual do the talking'. so, have a nice weekend, ppl... LOL.

and, DON'T LAF!!

argh...

am freaking out, thinking about goin to work tomolo!!! working on a company profile for an architect firm that never seemed to be able to complete! aaargggh! never never a 'nice' job to take at the first place! haiyo.... rili draining the blood outta me doin this ONE thing. this particular job nia nia. the rest, im more than ok. just this one!

and the worse thing is, maybe its a good thing oso... (duno lar) - im currently not handling any other jobs except for that one. aikks! COL! cry out loud! hahahahha... LOL. good - cos i can concentrate FULLY on this, bad - cos im stuck facing it 930 to 6! i am gona r.i.p. soon... haha! HELP! HELP!

and kakis all gona be unavailable this week. lagi lah sien... but luckily, i made a 'booking' liau. hahah... a week plus plus in advance! just hope that my booking will not be violated la.

=( cepat cepat complete ah!! can see why i appreciate ANY form of distraction ler....

skeptical

Anyway, so far, this is the first time I wud really like to be able to flash that sony.e hp katun at someone – wishing that I myself can REALLY transform into that look to show to that person! Hmmph! Haha… it was unbelievable yet I find it very amusing! Hahaha… speechless! 5 mins to 6pm, got call from my khai-pa asking me to join em for dinner. Ok, since I was still in my office, and leaving soon anyway. So we went to crowne-duno-wad-square-or-tower-or-wad-on-earth-its-name-is, as long as it’s the crowne near my office dusi liau. Hehe… dined at mr. ho’s again, but tis time, only me and em two. Their kids no where in sight. Hehe… and IT’S THE FIRST TIME I EAT WITH ONLY THE TWO OF EM! So cute!

Then, came the waiter, or as he called himself, the ‘marketer’, taking down our orders. And when everything’s served, he lingered to chat with my khai-pa. no biggie… until he mentioned, pointing to my plate of alfredo, “this one, it takes 2 to 3 person to finish. 1 person can never finish it alone! Too filling.. bla bla bla…”

AND I WAS ALREADY (almost) HALFWAY EATING IT! (from the half that weren’t in my plate, a lil bit of it went to my khaima earlier la).

I looked at him with my eyes almost popping out (I assumed that, of cos) – why on earth do u needa make such comment? When people are already eating it? Halfway thim!

Adush! Hahaha… LOL. Really! was practically LOL-ing in my lil heart! R u trying to hint something there or wad> and he, did not just say it ONCE! He said it twice, or so! My gudiness! Hahaha… i'm not offended. I just find it very cute n funny (cute n funny cos I seldom am able to finish my food). How can u say so when u r already SEEING that your customer is eating halfway? LOL. If he gets commission for every single drop of leftover food on the table, that I can understand. Haha… tsk tsk tsk.

Ok, I ended up not finishing the whole thing. I was full. Maybe I ate 4/7 of the whole thing. Yea, he was rite. But my point is, that aint a NICE thing to say in front of your customers when they WERE eating, rite? Hehehe… =D

Oh yea, the sony.e katun I WISHED I can put on my face then was of cos, the skeptical one. Hahahah… LOL.

standing on the ground of uncertainty

Been standing there for so long, I dun quite remember how the heck I got there at the first place! In fact, I’ve been standing for so long, I think I am already sitting down there – still on the same ground. Why? I guess that is what uncertainty does – making one feels undecided, and divided?

A tug-of-war game (is that the name?) that keeps pulling u from both sides… and u just go with the flow, I guess? Sometimes, u shifted more to one side, and thinking that you are almost at the end of the game, then somehow, the opposite side pulled again.

AND TADAAA… U’RE BACK IN THE MIDDLE AGAIN! BACK TO SQUARE ONE.

The worse thing is to know that you are SITTING there already, and it seems like u don’t really care anymore. Even if the ground shook, u KNOW u’re gona fall to either sides – so it doesn’t really matter, I guess? Its either this side, or that side… or you’ll just remain sitting there in the middle of nowhere, until u get up and walk away.

Haha… wad the heck. I dun tink anyone wud ever know wad i'm REALLY toking about. Hehe… just a thought. Nothing much. (Assumptions will always be, until it is known to be true) =D

counting down the days... hehe

20 aug, 07. monday

ha... life at home without the buggin lil bro around is sure peaceful, man! hahaha... (i am not a very bad sis, ok. i am just saying tat my lil bro talks ALOT! hehehe. he's away for his BB camp somewher in the forest of duno wher. even he himself duno wher! haha... even tol me, if he happens to 'disappear', just go to his BB web group address to find out where on earth his camp is! apala!~ hahah...)

anyway, BEFORE i got bombarded with Qs again (from my very concerned kache), can i just say, that song is just an old song i happen to ter-listen when i was on my way home from work today? haha... nothing in particular.

*sob *sob... im broke liau (this one che, u wanna be more concerned, i'l be very much delighted)! hehe... sent 'the red' for service this morning. haha... i think ar, spending on this lil thing and another 'lil thing' at home (namely mao mao), is wayyyyyy more than my own medical fee! tsk tsk tsk! "guo-fen" =D (but ya ya, i know. its a good thing! haha.... im not complainin. just saying nia. hehe...)

o yea, guess wad! had a home cooked meal last nite, at home lar.. of cos. a dish, i ate, and had me turned sooooo 'blushin' & 'steamed-red-crab' & blerrie & mabuk til i myself find it RIDICULOUS! im not gona name wad i ate, of cos! tooo ridicule liau! (but NOT MANY PPL CAN EAT THAT! whahahaha!) my gudiness! tsk tsk tsk... it was added with some alcohol (?) TIIIIINNNNYYYYY bit nia! and i peng at arnd 9++pm! LDM!! used to be able to take more than tat amount ler... hmmm... terible nyeeee me. tsk tsk tsk...

'Scars'

"Scars" (by Papa Roach)

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut

My weakness is that I care too much

And my scars remind me that the past is real

I tear my heart open just to feel

Drunk and I'm feeling down

And I just wanna be alone

I'm pissed cause you came around

Why don't you just go home

Cause you channel all your pain

And I can't help you fix yourself

You're making me insane

All I can say is

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut

My weakness is that I care too much

And our scars remind us that the past is real

I tear my heart open just to feel

I tried to help you once

Against my own advice

I saw you going down

But you never realized

That you're drowning in the water

So I offered you my hand

Compassions in my nature

Tonight is our last stand

I'm drunk and I'm feeling down

And I just wanna be alone

You shouldn't ever come around

Why don't you just go home?

Cause you're drowning in the water

And I tried to grab your hand

And I left my heart open

But you didn't understand

But you didn't understand

Go fix yourself

I can't help you fix yourself

But at least I can say I tried

I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life

I can't help you fix yourself

But at least I can say I tried

I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life

blueeekkkk!

hehe... outta boredom on a sunday aftnun, i present u... ME! and tats my BULKY hp rite there! hehe...

(i tink its alot nicer than the OTHER pix i got. hehehe... ok, si-ai-bin-ness can be infectious too! hehe =D )

Yahoo! Malaysia Polls

hehe... a minute before 19 august!

was checking my mail, and at the same time, searching for something more local to KNOW and to READ about, so i went yahoo malaysia instead. had actually typed sumting in the search box, clicked liau, but someting attracted my eyes towards the bottom right of the page, - its a poll. and i clicked on my answer option. then it links u to the result. haha... see below.

Yahoo! Malaysia Polls

(266 votes since Aug 17 2007)

New rules for bus companies. I think it's:

(a) Too little too late!_________________________ 18% (49 votes)

(b) Good, but measures too harsh._______________ 6% (17 votes)

(c) Good, but measures not harsh enough.________ 11% (28 votes)

(d) Going to be all talk and no action._________ 65% (172 votes)

hahaha... SO TYPICAL of us malaysians to think tat way. haha... but i guess, its not baseless! hehe... (and yea, i am very wuliau now, i know. haha... )

friends

fwded mail, needless to say! hahah...

we've known each other by CHANCE,
became friends by CHOICE,
still friends by DECISION.
and when we say FRIENDS FOREVER,
that's definitely a lifetime PROMISE!

a friend is sweet when its NEW,
but it is sweeter when its TRUE!
but u know what?
it is the sweetest when its YOU!

a friend gives hope when life is low,
a friend is a place when you have nowhere to go,
a friend is honest,
a friend is true.
a friend is precious and that my friend, is you.

knowing a friend like you has made me happy in a million ways,
and if ever i have to let you go,
i would find a million reasons to make you stay!

if you're in trouble,
if you need a hand,
just call my number,
because im your friend!

i have a gift sent from heaven,
and that gift my friend, is you.

never say you're happy when you're sad,
never say you are fine when you're not okay.
never say you feel good when you feel bad,
and never say you are alone when i'm still alive...

i must have been born under a lucky star,
to find a friend as nice as you are!

life is not easy and it will never be,
but you've got friends and one of them is me!

don't wait for people to be friendly,
show them how!

ur in love

(fwded mail)

WHEN I SAW YOU... I WAS AFRAID TO TALK TO YOU...

WHEN I TALKED TO YOU...I WAS AFRAID TO HOLD YOU...
WHEN I HOLD YOU...I WAS AFRAID TO LOVE YOU...
NOW THAT I LOVE YOU ...I'M AFRAID TO LOSE YOU...

SOMETIMES LOVE HURTS...
BUT IF IT DOESN'T HURT...THEN IT ISN'T LOVE...

HOLD ON TO THE PERSON U LOVE...

BEFORE HE/SHE SLIPS AWAY...
AND U CAN NEVER GET HIM/HER BACK..

When you are together with that special someone, you pretend to ignore that person. But when that special someone is not around, you might look around to find them. At that moment, you are in love.

Although there is someone else who always makes you laugh, your eyes and attention might go only to that special someone. Then, you are in love.

Although that special someone was supposed to have called you long back, to let you know oftheir safe arrival, your phone is quiet. You are desperately waiting for the call! At that moment, you are in love.

If you are much more excited for one short e-mail from that special someone than other many long e-mails, you are in love.

When you find yourself as one who cannot erase all the messages in your answering machine because of one message from that special someone, you are in love.
When you get a couple of free movie tickets, you would not hesitate to think of that special someone. Then, you are in love.

You keep telling yourself, "that special someone is just a friend", but you realize that you can not avoid that person's special attraction. At that moment, you are in love.

While you are reading this page, if someone appears in your mind, then u are in love with that person.

sumtimes ur in-luv...u jz never knew it!

I could not pick that flower yet...

fwded mail! (i am everyday posting fwded mails here. haha... but its very nice to read, so no harm la. hehe... enjoy reading, and have a sweet nice weekend!)

My husband is an Engineer by profession, I love him for his steady nature, and I love the warm feeling when I lean against his broad shoulders.

Three years of courtship and now, two years into marriage, I would have to admit, that I am getting tired of it. The reasons of me loving him before has now transformed into the cause of all my restlessness. I am a sentimental woman and extremely sensitive when it comes to a relationship and my feelings, I yearn for the romantic moments, like a ittle girl yearning for candy. My husband is my complete opposite, his lack of sensitivity, and the inability of bringing romantic moments into our marriage has disheartened me about love. One day, I finally decided to tell him my decision, that I wanted a divorce. "Why?" he asked, shocked. "I am tired, there are no reasons for everything in the world!" I answered.

He kept silent the whole night, seemed to be in deep thought with a lighted cigarette at all times. My feeling of disappointment only increased, here was a man who can't even express his predicament, what else can I hope from him? And finally he asked me:" What can I do to change your mind?"

Somebody said it right, it's hard to change a person's personality, and I guess, I have started losing faith in him.

Looking deep into his eyes I slowly answered : "Here is the question, if you can answer and convince my heart, I will change my mind, Let's say, I want a flower located on the face of a mountain cliff, and we both are sure that picking the flower will cause your death, will you do it for me?"

He said:" I will give you your answer tomorrow...."

My hopes just sank by listening to his response.

I woke up the next morning to find him gone, and saw a piece of paper with his scratchy handwriting, underneath a milk glass, on the dining table near the front door, that goes.... My dear, "I would not pick that flower for you, but please allow me to explain the reasons further.." This first line was already breaking my heart.

I continued reading..... "When you use the computer you always mess up the Software programs, and you cry in front of the screen, I have to save my fingers so that I can help to restore the programs. You always leave the house keys behind, thus I have to save my legs to rush home to open the door for you. You love traveling but always lose your way in a new city, I have to save my eyes to show you the way. You always have the cramps whenever your "good friend" approaches every month, I have to save my palms so that I can calm the cramps in your Tummy. You like to stay indoors, and I worry that you will be infected by infantile autism. I have to save my mouth to tell you jokes and stories to cure your boredom. You always stare at the computer, and that will do nothing good for your eyes, I have to save my eyes so that when we grow old, I can help to clip your nails, and help to remove those annoying white hairs. So I can also hold your hand while strolling down the beach, as you enjoy the sunshine and the beautiful sand... and tell you the color of flowers, just like the color of the glow on your young face... Thus, my dear, unless I am sure that there is someone who loves you more than I do... I could not pick that flower yet, and die.. "

My tears fell on the letter, and blurred the ink of his handwriting...and as I continue on reading... "Now, that you have finished reading my answer, if you are satisfied, please open the front door for I am standing outside bringing your favorite bread and fresh milk..."

I rush to pull open the door, and saw his anxious face, clutching tightly with his hands, the milk bottle and loaf of bread....

Now I am very sure that no one will ever love me as much as he does, and I have decided to leave the flower alone...

That's life, and love. When one is surrounded by love, the feeling of excitement fades away, and one tends to ignore the true love that lies in between the peace and dullness.

Love shows up in all forms, even very small and cheeky forms, it has never been a model, it could be the dullest and boring form.. . Flowers, and romantic moments are only used and appear on the surface of the relationship. Under all this, the pillar of true love stands... and that's our life...

Love, not words win arguments...

high temp

16 aug, thurs

havent been ot-ing for quite some weeks, and today had to ot a while, walao... so energy-less!~ worse, tomolo gota reach office early gok! an hour before my usual time! meaning, in order to avoid jam, i gota be up even earlier! aikksss! =( gota rush for a newspaper ad to be published on monday. hmmmph. terible! just hope that i wont have to ot tomolo! hehe...

ahh, me feeling high temp again today. dear dear gg... duno wen baru can stop bothering me! argh... plus another co-factor made me boiled even more! not helping at all! whole day today, can actually feel my face 'steaming' tho im in an 'air-conded' office.

oh ya, the new persona? i dun tink its nice. and 'offended' me so much to read the article bout it, sumting about it being "the direct replacement for the ageing Wira" (the star online) how can they say tat! tsk tsk tsk! im offended! hehe...and! there's gona be a fireworks fest in putrajaya come this merdeka day... starting sometime next week or so? how i wish i can go...! few countries from all over the world 'displayin' their fireworks, sumting lidat? ha... too bad.

HOW FRIENDSHIP BREAK ?

fwded mail

HOW FRIENDSHIP BREAK.

Both Friends Will Think The Other Is Busy And Will Not Contact Thinking It May Be Disturbing

As Time Passes Both Will Think Let The OTher Contact

After That each Will Think Why I Should Contact First?

Here Your Love Will Be Converted To Hate

Finally Without Contact The Memory Becomes Weak

They Forget Each Other...

pinched!

15 august 2007.

for the chinese, im very sure u've heard of the phrase "pun kui niam" (in hokkien), which means "pinched by ghost". hehe... for the superstitious ppl, it is so when u discovered that u have bruises that u kenot detect where or how it came from. hehe... meaning, the ghost pinched u la! haha...

and today i came home to find somewher on my left leg, a lil above my knee, one HUGE bruise! haha... as huge as one's thumbprint! haha... makes me wonder, wher and how i got it! lol...

(nah, im not one who is superstitious. just tat, i find it very funny! haha... )

my dear gigi

argh! the stupid aching nuisance from the 'mauk-keluar-tak-mauk-keluar' gigi of mine! nehh, the last 'big' gigi tat will only pop out after bothering u for some few months, and it seems to take forever to appear! stil not appearing gok, as of now... but i've had the on-and-off ache since i-cannot-rmbr-when! wanna grow new gigi, grow la! why make such big fuss abt it! hmmmph!

a fren said she had the baby-gigis 'plucked' out for rm350 per babe! my gudiness! its scary leh the way she described the 'surgery'! eeewwwww! and its the last gigi at the end of ur gum leh! meaning, they're gona force u to open ur mouth like a buayak lidat?! yerrr.... had a terrible experience with my primary-school dentist tat i can stil rmber vividly, til now. tats y.

but for now, mine's not that terible yet, just tat its kinda annoying! =<>

leaving...

cud rili use that pix now =( ... 13 august 2007, 1045pm.

js got back from a super 'slow' badminton game and dinner with my old pals. slow because i tink everyone was kinda energy-less due to empty stomach? haha.. but im used to it liau ler. owes hav dinner after game. but for me, kinda not very much into the game - maybe cos i just found out that one of my frens, MITE be leaving to work in another state! SHOCK THE BEJEEBERS OUTTA ME! he is the LEAST expected to leave, yet it mite just be!

funny thing is, evyone tot i WUD, but im here to stay... if im the one leaving to another place, i dun think anyone wud be surprised AT ALL! but not him! u wud NEVER have tot he wud! ha! its not that im sad that this fren of mine mite be leaving (i knew him since primary one, sitting cun cun opposite me, crying on the 1st day of pri 1 class, while i sat there kuai-kuaily looking at him-ALONE, without my mum! how can a boy be crying but not me, i wondered! and his mom was there ler! hahahaa... that's why he gets 'bullied' by us girls all the time now, u see! hahahaha... JK!)

ok, back to my point. not that im sad he is planning to leave. its a good thing if everything is better there. just tat, its very saddening to see ur frens, leaving one by one! ermm, if not mistaken, in june, a galpal left too. and another one leaving soon?? arghhh... rili made me sooooo... sad? the kakis are getting lesser month by month!

i gues life is like tat kua?? ppl come and ppl go. and then, ah... duno how to describe. hmmm... maybe partly its becos i KNOW for sure im staying. never gona be leaving. and evyone seems to be leaving. no good.. no good. if there's one more leaving, i tink the 'liquid' wud automatically generate from within my eyeballs! hahahahaha... (dun nid me to be sooo strait-to-the-point kua? haha...)

ahh, in short, everyone seems to be leaving... =(

*anwy, nvr rili thanked anyone for their 'bugs' actually. haha... but am glad to get a 'series' tonite. REALLY appreciate it. (replacement for a 'mail' that was never sent, i guess? hmmph... =P haha, jk! but thanx a lot, rili!)

oki. im leaving too..

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to a 5 days' trip in 2 wiks' time! hahah... and leaving to get to my bed too. hehehe...

tomorrow can be too late

from a fwded mail oso. but very typical piece la this one... but then again, diff msg struck diff ppl @ diff situation @ diff time. maybe it'll be a 'reminder' for some ppl out there, who knows? anyway, happi reading...

If you're mad with someone, and nobody's there to fix the situation... you fix it.

Maybe today, that person still wants to be your friend. And if u don't, tomorrow can be too late .

If you're in love with somebody , but that person doesn't know... tell her/him.

Maybe today, that person is also in love with you . And if you don't say it, tomorrow can be too late .

if you still love a person who you think has forgotten you... tell her/him.

Maybe that person has always loved you. And if you don't tell her/him today , tomorrow can be too late.

If you need a hug of a friend... ask her/him for it.

Maybe they need it more than you do. And if you don't ask for it today, tomorrow can be too late.

If you really have friends who you appreciate... tell them. Maybe they appreciate you as well. And if you don't and they leave or go far away today , tomorrow can be too late.

If you love your parents and never had the chance to show them... do it . And if you don't and they leave today, tomorrow can be too late.

youth cup

went parkson with a close pal yesterday (sat) late aftnun, cun cun came face to face with the hunks from Chelsea's youth team!

never a fan of football, i din actually know which team they were... but i know they were all in jersey. haha... walkin from wad-on-earth-is-tat-name hotel to duno where!(hamik hotel liau? the one at tat building?) haha... nvm. no big deal. oki, continue - din know which team they were from, til i heard those lepaking kids shout Chelsea!

here for the Youth Cup, i guess?

and, like hitz.fm radio announcer said, "come and watch tomolo's star in action today!" =D

When You Divorce Me, Carry Me Out in Your Arms

from a fwded mail... VERY VERY THE LONG, but VERY VERY VERY VERY the touching (so much so it makes me wonder, is this kinda thing even possible?? hehe... but enjoy reading ya!)

On my wedding day, I carried my wife in my arms. The Bridal car stopped in front of our one-room flat. My buddies insisted that I carry her out of the car in my arms. So I carried her into our home. She was then plump and shy. I was a strong and happy bridegroom.

This was the scene ten years ago.

The following days were as simple as a cup of pure water: we had a kid; I went into business and tried to make more money. When the assets were steadily increasing, the affection between us seemed to ebb. She was a civil servant. Every morning we left home together and got home almost at the same time. Our kid was studying in a boarding school.

Our marriage life seemed to be enviably happy. But the calm life was more likely to be affected by unpredictable changes.

Dew came into my life.

It was a sunny day. I stood on a spacious balcony. Dew hugged me from behind. My heart once again was immersed in her stream of love. This was the apartment I bought for her.

Dew said, you are the kind of man who best draws girls' eyeballs. Her words suddenly reminded me of my wife. When we were just married, my wife said, Men like you, once successful, will be very attractive to girls.

Thinking of this, I became somewhat hesitant. I knew I had betrayed my wife. But I couldn't help doing so.

I moved Dew's hands aside and said you go to select some furniture, O.K.? I've got something to do in the company. Obviously she was unhappy, because I had promised to do it together with her. At the moment, the idea of divorce became clearer in my mind although it used to be something impossible to me.

However, I found it rather difficult to tell my wife about it. No matter how mildly I mentioned it to her, she would be deeply hurt.

Honestly, she was a good wife. Every evening she was busy preparing dinner. I was sitting in front of the TV. The dinner was ready soon. Then we watched TV together. Or, I was lounging before the computer, visualizing Dew's body. This was the means of my entertainment.

One day I said to her in a slightly joking way, suppose we divorce, what will you do? She stared at me for a few seconds without a word. Apparently she believed that divorce was something too far away from her. I couldn't imagine how she would react once she got to know I was serious.

When my wife went to my office, Dew had just stepped out. Almost all the staff looked at my wife with a sympathetic eye and tried to hide something while talking to her. She seemed to have got some hint. She gently smiled at my subordinates. But I read some hurt in her eyes.

Once again, Dew said to me, He Ning, divorce her, O.K.? Then we live together. I nodded. I knew I could not hesitate any more.

When my wife served the last dish, I held her hand. I've got something to tell you, I said. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking.' I want a divorce'. I raised the serious topic calmly.

She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why? I'm serious. I avoided her question. This so-called answer made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man!

That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer, because my heart had gone to Dew.

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. I felt a pain in my heart. The woman who had been living ten years with me would become a stranger one day. But I could not take back what I had said.Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer.

Late that night, I came back home after entertaining my clients. I saw her writing something at the table. I fall asleep fast. When I woke up, I found she was still there. I turned over and was asleep again.

She brought up her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but I was supposed to give her one month s time before divorce, and in the month's time we must live as normal a life as possible. Her reason was simple: our son would finish his summer vacation a month later and she didn't want him to see our marriage was broken.She passed me the agreement she drafted, and then asked me, He Ning, do you still remember how I entered our bridal room on the wedding day? This question suddenly brought back all those wonderful memories to me. I nodded and said, I remember. You carried me in your arms, she continued, so, I have a requirement, that is, you carry me out in your arms on the day when we divorce. From now to the end of this month, you must carry me out from the bedroom to the door every morning.

I accepted with a smile. I knew she missed those sweet days and wished to end her marriage romantically.

I told Dew about my wife s divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she does, she has to face the result of divorce, she said scornfully. Her words more or less made me feel uncomfortable.

My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. We even treated each other as a stranger. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly, Let us start from today, don't tell our son. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for a bus, I drove to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. We were so close that I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this intimate woman carefully for a long time. I found she was not young any more. There were some fine wrinkles on her face.

On the third day, she whispered to me, the outside garden is being demolished. Be careful when you pass there.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I seemed to feel that we were still an intimate couple and I was holding my sweetheart in my arms. The visualization of Dew became vague.

On the fifth and sixth day, she kept reminding me something, such as, where she put the ironed shirts, I should be careful while cooking, etc. I nodded. The sense of intimacy was even stronger. I didn't tell Dew about this.

I felt it was easier to carry her. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger. I said to her, It seems not difficult to carry you now. She was picking her dresses. I was waiting to carry her out. She tried quite a few but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I smiled. But I suddenly realized that it was because she was thinner that I could carry her more easily, not because I was stronger. I knew she had buried all the bitterness in her heart. Again, I felt a sense of pain. Subconsciously I reached out a hand to touch her head.

Our son came in at the moment. Dad, it's time to carry mum out. He said. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had been an essential part of his life. She gestured our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face because I was afraid I would change my mind at the last minute. I held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly, as if we came back to our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad.

On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. She said, actually I hope you will hold me in your arms until we are old.

I held her tightly and said, both you and I didn't notice that our life lacked intimacy.

I jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my decision. I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door. I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I won't divorce. I'm serious.

She looked at me, astonished. The she touched my forehead. You got no fever. She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I can only say sorry to you, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of life, not because we didn't love each other any more. Now I understand that since I carried her into the home, she gave birth to our child, I am supposed to hold her until I am old. So I have to say sorry to you.

Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove to the office.

When I passed the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet for my wife which was her favorite. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, ' I'll carry you out every morning until we are old'.

*nice eh? my sis must have known i'll SURELY post tis up in my blug, thats why she sent it to me! hahaha... but its a nice piece of story to read (all the more so when ur waiting for ur hair to dry! hahahaha... 1240am. im supposed to KUAI KUAI-ly go sleep earlier!) =P

cont' 33 Facts About Guys

someone was actually KIND ENUF to spare time 'lecturing' to me bout the p.o.v. with regards to this topic. (and like i said again, interestingly-informative, much more appetizing2d eyes... so it wasnt AT ALL a boring 'seminar'). hehe...

1. Guys don't actually look after good-looking girls. They prefer neat and presentable girls. (RILI?)

---> in short, they prefer girls who groom emselves! but it comes in a whole package of Looks + Personality, too! (and had me terrified - im not someone who does 'touching ups'! =/ eng eng!!).

2. Guys hate flirts.(AGAIN, RILI?)

---> din rili get the answer to this. actually, din get the answer at all YET!

4. Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep,they always think about the girl they truly care about. (THIS I RILI DO NOT KNOW. CAN SUCH THING BE?)

---> still owe me an answer to this!

6. Guys go crazy over a girl's smile. (...?)

---> totally forgot about this question! haha...

12. A guy would sacrifice his money for lunch just to get you a couple of roses. (DEPENDS ON HOW SWEET THE GUY IS OSO MAR... )

---> u know wad? they rili wud!

13. A guy often thinks about the girl who likes him. But this doesn't mean that the guy likes her.

---> miss tiau this Q oso.

23. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you. (HUH! IF THE OTHER WAY ROUND?)

---> forgot this Q oso. but dont bother answering this la - cos if its the other way round, its gona be FACTS ABOUT GIRLS. not guys liau. hehe...

27. Girls' height doesn't really matter to a guy but her weight does! (YERRRR... SO CHAM!)

---> it RILI does not matter lor! (but depends on every individuals too la).

ahh.... from wad i post here, seems like the answers are incomplete! hahaha... more unanswered than answered! apalah! fail lar this 'lecturer'! hahaha...

“message sent”

fri, August 10, 2007 (3pm)

aiksss! Wrong recipient! Aisi!!!!

gues that’s all you can do when you realized that the msg has been sent to the wrong person – aisi?!! Haha… anyone familiar with this kinda ‘accident’? I am! I am! Actually, happened to me twice in 2 days’ time. Haha… gud thing was, I'm not all the blurrie party nia – was the wrong recipient and also, the wrong sender.

Had me recall this Q, (one of my fav Q also) WHENEVER I GOT A WRONG MSG SENT TO ME, “you msgd the wrong person, or you tryin to kacau me?” haha… or like, another person puts it this way, “ke ke want to bug me hia?” (haha, yea rite! si ai bin! SOLI LOR TER-BUG TIOK U… hehe =P)

But then, the point is – that is so typical a feedback one will get! Haha… TYPICAL!!!

ah, NEVER fancied receiving msgs not meant for me! Not only it got you wondering blurriely, HUH?! for a moment, but sometimes, IT CAN BE REAL KEKOK LEH! So very the kekok! (can be soooo awkward til i'm angry! Me! The one RECEIVING the wrongly-sent sms!) Haha…

got a msg from a ‘lady’ once, MEANT TO BE FOR THE BOYBOY (who is now the hubby). APALAH! Read liau pun marah! Haha… sisua send msg! want to send wrongly also don't send to me lah this kinda (mushie) msg, tiok bor! Apalah! Hahaha… had me ‘kua kua jiao!’ angrily at this ‘lady’ for sending IT to me! Hmmmph! No more 2nd time! So awkward for me! Hahaha… ish! (you know who you are! Hahahaa).

But, like I said, I guess my name’s on top of her list kua? (was her confidante then, I guess? Just kidding!!) Haha… so people! Bukak mata besar besar before you send any msg! make sure its to the correct person! =P don't make other people kekok si. Haha…

(luckily, the ones I sent n received wrongly weren’t anything ‘unique’! hehe. Else, they’re going to make me ‘kua kua jiao’ gok liau! haha) (ignore the pin yin!)

YAY!!!! FINALLY! I'VE SUCCESSFULLY PLEADED FOR MY OFF-DAY TOMOLO! YAY!! (sounded sooooo kelian…) hahahah...

have a greaat weekend ahead, ppl. enjoy b4 the days SUDDENLY disappear and its monday again! hahaha...

dreamer of dreams

friday, 10.08.07, 1.15am

(from somewhere... cannot recall where tho)

"we are the music makers, and the dreamer of dreams..."

something to ponder...

"when you make a mistake, don't look back at it long. take the reason of the thing into your mind and then look forward. mistakes are lessons of wisdom. the past cannot be changed. the future is yet in your power."

Hugh White

"it hurts to find out that what you wanted doesn't match what you dreamed it would be" Randy K. Milholland

"to be brave is to love someone unconditionally, without expecting anything in return. to just give. that takes courage, because we don't want to fall on our faces or leave ourselves open to hurt." Madonna

"the greatest mistake in life that you can make is to be continually fearing you will make one" Elbert Hubbard

Information Please...

got tis story from a forwarded mail... very nice!

Information Please

When I was quite young, my father had one of the first telephones in our neighborhood. I remember well the polished, old case fastened to the wall. The shiny receiver hung on the side of the box.I was too little to reach the telephone, but used to listen with fascination when my mother used to talk to it.

Then discovered that somewhere inside the wonderful device lived an amazing person - her name was "Information Please" and there was nothing she did not know."Information Please" could supply anybody's number and the correct time.

My first personal experience with this genie_in_the_bottle came one day while my mother was visiting a neighbor. Amusing myself at the tool bench in the basement, I whacked my finger with a hammer. The pain was terrible, but there didn't seem to be any reason in crying because there was no one home to give sympathy. I walked around the house sucking my throbbing finger, finally arriving at the stairway.The telephone! Quickly, I ran for the foot stool in the parlor and dragged it to the landing. Climbing up, I unhooked the receiver in the parlor and held it to my ear. "Information Please," I said into the mouthpiece just above my head.

A click or two and a small clear voice spoke into my ear.

"Information"

"I hurt my finger..." I wailed into the phone. The tears came readily enough now that I had an audience.

"Isn't your mother home?" came the question.

"Nobody's home but me," I blubbered.

"Are you bleeding?" the voice asked.

"No," I replied. "I hit my finger with the hammer and it hurts."

"Can you open your icebox?" she asked. I said I could.

"Then chip off a little piece of ice and hold it to your finger," said the voice.

After that, I called "Information Please" for everything.

I asked her for help with my geography and she told me where Philadelphia was. She helped me with my math. She told me my pet chipmunk, that I had caught in the park just the day before, would eat fruit and nuts.

Then, there was the time Petey, our pet canary died. I called "Information Please" and told her the sad story. She listened, then said the usual things grown ups say to soothe a child. But I was un-consoled.

I asked her, "Why is it that birds should sing so beautiful and bring joy to all families, only to end up as a heap of feathers on the bottom of a cage?"

She must have sensed my deep concern, for she said quietly, "Paul, always remember that there are other worlds to sing in."

Somehow I felt better.Another day I was on the telephone. "Information Please."

"Information," said the now familiar voice.

"How do you spell fix?" I asked.

All this took place in a small town in the Pacific Northwest. When I was nine years old, we moved across the country to Boston. I missed my friend very much. "Information Please" belonged in that old wooden box back home and I somehow never thought of trying the tall, shiny new phone that sat on the table in the hall. As I grew into my teens, the memories of those childhood conversations never really left me. Often, In moments of doubt and perplexity I would recall the serene sense of security I had then. I appreciated now how patient, understanding, and kind she was to have spent her time on a little boy.

A few years later, on my way west to college, my plane put down in Seattle I had about half_an_hour or so between planes. I spent 15 minutes or so on the phone with my sister, who lived there now. Then, without thinking what I was doing, I dialed my hometown operator and said, "Information, please."

Miraculously, I heard the small, clear voice I knew so well.

"Information."

I hadn't planned this, but I heard myself saying, "Could you please tell me how to spell fix?"

There was a long pause. Then came the soft spoken answer, "I guess your finger must have healed by now."

I laughed, "So it's really still you," I said. "I wonder if you have any idea how much you meant to me during that time."

"I wonder," she said, "if you know how much your calls meant to me. I never had any children and I used to look forward to your calls."

I told her how often I had thought of her over the years and I asked if I could call her again when I came back to visit my sister.

"Please do," she said. "Just ask for Sally."

Three months later I was back in Seattle. A different voice answered, "Information."

I asked for Sally.

"Are you a friend?" she said.

"Yes, a very old friend," I answered.

"I'm sorry to have to tell you this," she said. "Sally had been working part time the last few years because she was sick. She died five weeks ago."

Before I could hang up she said, "Wait a minute. Did you say your name was Paul?"

"Yes."

"Well, Sally left a message for you. She wrote it down in case you called. Let me read it to you. The note said, "Tell him I still say there are other worlds to sing in. He'll know what I mean."

I thanked her and hung up. I knew what Sally meant.

Never underestimate the impression you may make on others.

08.08.07

next year today shall be the olympics in china? if im not mistaken? 08.08.08?

anyway, felt so bad for breaking my promise for a supper with a fren lastnite! haha... was TOOOOOO the VERY sleepy then! sorrie ya, pal... slept as early as 10pm, and i was so fully charged, im not even sleepy NOW! its past midnite liau. apala! toking about wrong timing! hmmph!

tadaaa... my table calendar. hahaha... see the balloon-ed up ones?? the one which marks the 5th - a very gud fren's bday (no nida balloon i oso can rmbr! hehe...) the last 3 balloons (cont to the next month oso) - jeng jeng!! haha... my long-awaited trip! hehehe... counting the days... EVERYDAY! hahaha... (but then again, i cross my calendar every single day since dat 1 at work! hehe...) its called a habit, again... (like the sleeping with my blankie all over me, from head to toe!)

"habit"

2.customary practice or use: Daily bathing is an American habit.

3.a particular practice, custom, or usage: the habit of shaking hands.

5.addiction, esp. to narcotics (often prec. by the).

*question

do ppl get addicted to doin something? yes, and then, it became a habit. and then, it makes u feel weird when ur tryin not to get 'addicted' (to that habit). susah betul!

*solution

"what it lies in ur power to do, it lies in ur power not to do..." aristotle.

(again, from my prudential organizer, tho im a great eastern-er... hehehehe...) LOL. sounded sooo nice, and that is why, there's this phrase - actions speak louder than words. til u can do it, then baru say u can solve (ur addiction) la...

OK! im officially nonsensing here. tryin to get my eyes tired, watodo! finish reading omost everything liau and stil wide awake! arggh! gota go sleep, else Sleep Deprived, and then, Brain Damage! hahaha... (duno wad im toking about? continue reading...) gudnite ppl!

health info

BRAIN DAMAGING HABITS

1. No Breakfast

People who do not take breakfast are going to have a lower blood sugar level. This leads to an insufficient supply of nutrients to the brain causing brain degeneration.

(ahh, luckily im one who swallows bfast! will faint without one, i tink! =P)

2. Overeating

It causes hardening of the brain arteries, leading to a decrease in mental power.

3. Smoking

It causes multiple brain shrinkage and may lead to Alzheimer disease.

(*hate it sooo much my boss has to go downstairs to smoke! cos i said, "if one day im diagnosed with lung cancer or etc connected, U BETTER FEEL GUILTY. hehe.. so its a 'smoke-free' office now. hehehe)

4. High Sugar consumption

Too much sugar will interrupt the absorption of proteins and nutrients causing malnutrition and may interfere with brain development.

5. Air Pollution

The brain is the largest oxygen consumer in our body. Inhaling polluted air decreases the supply of oxygen to the brain, bringing about a decrease in brain efficiency.

6. Sleep Deprivation

Sleep allows our brain to rest. Long term deprivation from sleep will accelerate the death of brain cells.

(*blame it on the working hour. belum sleep enuf nia needa wake up liau! hmmmph!)

7. Head covered while sleeping

Sleeping with the head covered, increases the concentration of carbon dioxide and decrease concentration of oxygen that may lead to brain damaging effects.

(*aisiiii!!! im owes covered as covered can be!!! hahahaha.... habit! and, sleepin is the worst time, a.k.a. the most impossible time to change a habit,i tink!)

8. Working your brain during illness

Working hard or studying with sickness may lead to a decrease in effectiveness of the brain as well as damage the brain.

9. Lacking in stimulating thoughts

Thinking is the best way to train our brain, lacking in brain stimulation thoughts may cause brain shrinkage.

10. Talking Rarely

Intellectual conversations will promote the efficiency of the brain.

geram me! hmmph!

how do u describe a person whom, when u say he/she's nice, he/she turns out to be kinda bad n noti? and when u THINK he/she's bad, other ppl saved the day by saying he/she is the nicest of all. hmmmph!

I AM SPEECHLESS - totally! =P

ahhh anyway... gwen stefani's coming for a concert... IN KL =<

"goblok" =D

Ha… how time flies! Kejap kejap its Friday, and then in the blink of an eye, it’s a working Monday liau! Hmmmph! Gota apply for unpaid leave AGAIN liau! This time, it’s going to be for my second ‘incoming’ niece (in october). Hehe… Argh! Never an easy task for me – applying leave! Since day 1 in this office! Haha… every other thing is more than OK for me to ask, except – LEAVE! =P die… die… will get a long session of loso-ing again liau, I bet (when my boss' back)! =/

Haha…

Anyway, happen to ter-saw this in my organizer today:

“Dream as if you’ll live forever. Live as if you’ll die today…” James Dean

Possible?? hahaha... nah. dun tink so.

Ahh! I'm losing weight! 2kg in like… erm, let me see… 4 days’ time? Ha! If this continues, people will start asking the SAME Q again – “why are you so thin? Are you sick or something?” LOL… ermmm, hello? hello? not tat i do anytg to "encourage" the weit goin away! haha… back in uni 2nd year, I was like 46 to 47 or something lidat, few uni friends came to me and asked that “Are you sick?” q! LOL. Cham lor. Lost my appetite! CAN BE QUITE AN EATER LER ME WHEN MY APPETITE WAS OKAY! Wonder what is wrong! Hummmm… (still hunting for the best laksa in town, btw. Haha… haven’t had one since months ago due to the ‘shortage’ of nice ones for me! Haha…)

O ya! Haha… omost forgot! Hahahaha… LOL me this one. “goblok”! know what it means? Haha… according to Borneo Post today, goblok “means ‘stupid’ in Indonesian colloquial dialect”! haha… I'm just saying – it sounded so much cuter than what it means! Haha… goblok! (but no, you’re not supposed to be using this word at all. Its rude… but cute sounding!) =D goblok! hahahahaha...

22 more days! And I'm off to sabah!!! Yay!!

33 Facts about Guys

from a fwded mail... haha.

(Girls are surely going to read it)

*Believe it or not.......

1. Guys don't actually look after good-looking girls. They prefer neat and presentable girls. (RILI?)

2. Guys hate flirts.(AGAIN, RILI?)

3.When a guy says he doesn't understand you, it simply means you're not thinking the way he is. (DUH! THAT WAD "DUN UNDERSTAND" MEANS!!!)

4. Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep,they always think about the girl they truly care about. (THIS I RILI DO NOT KNOW. CAN SUCH THING BE?)

5. When a guy really likes you, he'll disregard all your bad characteristics. (SAME GOES TO THE GIRLS...)

6. Guys go crazy over a girl's smile. (...?)

7. Guys will do anything just to get the girl's attention.

8. When you touch a guy's heart, there's no turning back.

9. When a girl says "no", a guy hears it as "try again tomorrow".

10. You have to tell a guy what you really want before he gets the message clearly.

11. Guys love their moms. (WE GIRLS DO TOO!)

12. A guy would sacrifice his money for lunch just to get you a couple of roses. (DEPENDS ON HOW SWEET THE GUY IS OSO MAR... )

13. A guy often thinks about the girl who likes him. But this doesn't mean that the guy likes her. (AIKS!!)

14. You can never understand him unless you listen to him.

15. If a guy tells you he loves you once in a lifetime. He does.

16. Beware. Guys can make gossips scatter through half of the face of the earth faster than girls can. (HEHE..'38')

17. Like Eve, girls are guys' weaknesses.

18. Guys are very open about themselves.

19. It's good to test a guy first before you believe him. But don't let him wait that long.

20. Guys hate it when their clothes get dirty. Even a small dot.

21. Guys really admire girls that they like even if they're not that much pretty.

22. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.

23. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you. (HUH! IF THE OTHER WAY ROUND?)

24. Guys keep secrets that girls tell them.

25. Guys think too much.

26. Guys fantasies are unlimited.

27. Girls' height doesn't really matter to a guy but her weight does! (YERRRR... SO CHAM!)

28. Guys tend to get serious with their relationship and become too possessive. So watch out girls!!!

29. Guys are more talkative than girls are especially when the topic is about girls. (NO WONDER!)

30. You can truly say that a guy has good intentions if you see him praying sometimes.

31. If a guy says you're beautiful, that guy likes you.

32. Guys hate girls who overreact.

33. Guys love you more than you love them IF they are serious in your relationships.

Doesn't this all make sense? (DUNO. JUST TO SHARE WITH Y'ALL! HAHA... AND HAVE A GREEEAAAAT MONDAY! OKI! ITS 12 LIAU. CAN SLEEP LIAU. HEHE.... )

"sky-bike"

hehe... was a SUNNY SUNDAY today (*good for bla bla bla*... hahaha) =D ;-p

went pasir pandak with my fam, not very nice a place, but had fun watchin an uncle n his son flyin kites. not the ordinary kinda kites lor. they actually create sound like motorbikes when they r flyin. nice! and sharp! exactly like bikes, except that they are flyin in the sky. hehe... gues its actually nicer if i get to play it! haha.. provided that i know how to 'drive' the kite, of cos.

ah..and im envious of ppl who have a great bunch of 'same-headed' collegues~! lotsa fun! haha... too bad my office's soooo small in the number of ppl!

and... time for bed liau. lotsa places to go 2mlo (to be a 'duno-much-"assistant"' to my boss who's goin outstation~) hmmph! nites ppl! monday liau...! hmmph!! hmmph!!