W-day

haloooo midnite world!!

js back from my pre-wed photoshoot yesterday, and im back in office today.
dun rili care who's reading anymore... just wanted a space to spill my thots. how bad can that be. lol..

anwy, with the big day getting nearer and nearer, and more to-do-lists checked, i still feel that i can js let go of the whole planning and arranging of the big W-day! lol.. odd eh?

all i could wish and pray for, since the beginnnin of the relationship was for my guy to be a christian. and i wanted a wedding that is accordingly, and in the name of God. and i also know that i realized, back wen we just started to plan for the W, that due to the fact that i cant hav it that way, i know that whatever comes after that, i dun rili care. even if i am dressed down, while my guests are elegantly dressed, i dun mind. seriously i dun mind at all. lol...

i oso dun mind if my invitation card looks outdated like it was from back in the 80s. as long as the respectful way of inviting is being carried out, most importantly without offending anyone.. thats good enuf.

i dun even care if some peeps cant find dresses or dressed up against the theme color White. lol.. apa apa lah. i dun mind.

my point is, my no. 1 wish is to hav it solemnized in god's name. and i cant have that. so other things dont matter much.

call me odd. call me weird. call me with watever name u wan it to be. lol.. i dun care.

i oso dun care if I MYSELF cant get to choose WHAT I MYSELF like for MY OWN WEDDING just becoz my guy is the only son in the family - thus his parents wud oso be the host for ONCE only.. thus certain things gota be 'screened / filtered' by them even tho i dun rili like those selected options.

people wud definitely tell it to me:
"aiyahhh, just let them have what they want la.. afterall, its their only son, and its their only time to hav this privilege to host a wedding dinner... just give in la."

even i myself wud tell myself that. lol.. and sometimes, i even questioned myself - see lah, who ask u to choose a guy who is the only son in the family lah...?!!

but sometimes, i oso wondered - has anybody thought of me??
its MY wedding. its supposed to be MY big day.. and evybadi is fussing about the parents la, the siblings la.. tis and that. yeah sure, i can give in... but how ironic it is that i cant get what i want for my own day. lol...

IT IS SUPPOSED TO BE MY ONE AND ONLY TIME GETTING MARRIED TOO, u know... just like how it is with his parents being the host for this once. i will be the bride for this once too... but why cant i chuz the things i REALLY wanted to do?

and nawp... this is not sumtg i shud bother him with. lol.. so that is why, my midnite world -  im telling it to u. lol. if i tel it to him, its gona make him stuck in between. esp with his indecisive character. not firm enuf.

at the end of the day, it is all about the repo. the image. the shud-bessss and things like dat. lol...
inviting families of ppl whom parents mite not even know. ending up with us having to cut down on frens who really have been there in our lives as we grew up.

i just wanted an exchange of vow in Jesus' name - it cud be anywhere as long as its accordingly, a simple and closed circle tea ceremony for both parents for their love and care for us & REALLy close relatives that matters in our lives, and a trabelmoon of just the two of us. so simple, yet so imposiber. haizzzz...

so dont blame me if im still lacking in the department called "Excitement"...

hmmmm,.... i do wonder, do ppl call this the anxiety attack? lol.. or wads the other term for it. lol... but im quite sure it isnt that.

gona try to sleep now... goodnite!

harlow world

its been so so long.

my blogposting died-ed wen my bearbear lil noti doggie passed on. its been wad, 2 years? or 3 years? cant recall d year but definitely remembers d date. time heals, so they say. but i still find myself blinking away tears at times.. missing her ohhh so much. wishing that i cud rili rili turn back d time. hah.. life is never d same without her around. i miss u bearbear.. very much!

anwy.. my big day's in a few months to come! haha.. its been a long roller coaster journey. and if there's anytg i wish more thAn anything with regards to this relationship... its for God to take away d memories of my 1st year. haha.. such a contradiction eh? yeahhh believe me u, i wish just that whole part can be erased from d whole system. haha.

and with the big day reaching soon.. i sometimes feel d jitters. seeing, hearing and knowing people and families around me break apart becos of affairs etc, i rili am wondering to myself, wad if tis happens to me one day? will it? and is tis a wise decision to make? hmmmm... i dont feel d 'excitement' of goin thru d big day infact. it doesnt mean much to me coz my vow will not be in d name of god. too bad. all it is to me is just a waste of money. wad matters to me is the days after the big day.

gona end tis here. abrupt, i know. til the next one...

restored

back to sketchbookoflife.com

finally!!!

sardar (fwded)

Boss: Where were you born?
Sardar: India ..
Boss: which part?
Sardar: What ' which part ' ? Whole body was born in India .

2 sardar were fixing a bomb in a car.
Sardar 1: What would you do if the bomb
explodes while fixing.
Sardar 2: Dont worry, I have one more.

Sardar: What is the name of your car?
Lady: I forgot the name, but is starts with ' T ' .
Sardar: Oh, what a strange car, starts with Tea. All cars that I know start with petrol.

Sardar joined new job. 1st day he worked till late evening on the computer. Boss was happy and asked what you did till evening.
Sardar: Keyboard alphabets were not in order, so I made it alright.

Museum Administrator: That ' s a 500-year-old statue u ' ve broken.
Sardar: Thanks God! I thought it was a new one.

At the scene of an accident a man was crying: O God! I have lost my hand, oh!
Sardar: Control yourself. Don ' t cry. See that man. He has lost his head. Is he crying?

Sardar: U cheated me.
Shopkeeper: No, I sold a good radio to u.
Sardar: Radio label shows Made in Japan but radio says this is ' All India Radio! '

NOW THE LAST TWO ULTIMATE:
In an interview, Interviewer: How does an electric motor run?
Sardar: Dhhuuuurrrrrrrrrr. .....
Inteviewer shouts: Stop it.
Sardar: Dhhuurrrr dhup dhup dhup...

Tourist: Whose skeleton is that?
Sardar: An old king ' s skeleton.
Tourist: Who ' s that smaller skeleton next to it?
Sardar: That was same king ' s skeleton when he was a child

click

im sick! im sick! and i hate it wen im sick BUT at the same time, loaded with works to do! =/

anwy, accompanied momi for check up tis morning, so shunpian redo my 'flapping-3-layered' IC, (i look stupid in the pix, but dun care la), and got me passport sized photo taken! weeeee! so happy. so productive. lol.

and im on leave. partly coz im sickish too. and been ot-ing like an ant since sat.

oki oki. took a break from onlining last nite, and i watched tv instead. GUESS WAD. lol.
i ter-watched CLICK, adam sandler's on tv2. never watched it before. and my gudiness! guess wad again! towards the end, tat silly movie made me cry! lol. hahahahahahahahahhaha... stupidnyeeeee i felt. lol.

but its nice. never take for granted the ppl arnd us. "forever & ever, babe". lol. apala itu movie! lol. macam promoting diamond lidat. hahahaha...

=( i mish my sbol.com =( haihhhh...
no, no backup of data. din do tat. and now i stand a FAIR chance of losing all the published 'journals' of mine since 2008! =(

anwy, barbie's babe is officially a month old today. lyanne ng. did i ever mention tat i was 'partly' involved in naming her? hahahahahha... no lah, gave barbie few name options, and she & hubby chose lyanne (suggested leanne). hehehe =D cute eh? get to 'name' an ol fren's babe. hahahahaha... tho not exactly. stil, i'm flattered. hehehehehe.

i go sleep. its 1noon. heheheheh... sleep my sicknesses away! hahahaha =D

idleD

"244 Posts, last published on Jan 8, 2008"

hahahaha... post #245: July 8, 2009 (unintended).

i'm back to tis blog again. hahahahahah.. the good ol' blogspot. lol. laf... laf... or be shocked but, I RILI KENOT STAND NOT BLOGGIN. hahahaha... feels as if there's a caterpillar crawling under my skin. hahahaha.

anwy, sketchbookoflife.com is currently IDLE big time. big big time. dun ask me why. too lazy to explain. lol. but anwy, cross my fingers, hope it'll all be good again the soonest! i wud seriously cry my heart out my eyes buried underneath the grass if the data cant be 'returned'!!! me! and my lil life since 2006! oh, no no... 2006 the site is still here. 2008! arrgggghhhhh... the only place i spill all. and now, IF tat part's gona be lost forever, ahhhh... i cant imagine. its me. its mine. its personal. its very me. tats y. hahahaha...

anwy, to be continued again other day. hehehe... nites!

moved!

just in case some ppl misinterpreted or overlooked my 'announcement' before this one, i HAVE MOVED MY SITE, so THIS ONE HERE WILL NO LONGER BE UPDATED AFTER THIS.

old add: www.sketchbookoflife.BLOGSPOT.com is now moved to new add: www.sketchbookoflife.com (without "blogspot" anymore). tq!~ and c ya there! hehe...

www.sketchbookoflife.com

snapshots

okie... some of the belated events tat i only managed to get the pixes as of late. hehe. counting down...

23 december 07: Awang's Wedding Reception @ Stampark Hall

the one i mentioned wrote 'pei ling & FRIENDS' in his invitation card? hehe... knew him since primary school ler!

31 december 07: Mao Mao Bear in Digital Camera Mag!

i only got the december issue magazine of the last day of the month. haha...

last but not least, 4 January 08: the Pact!

hehehe... js snapping this for fun! 5 lil cubes of Cadbury's Top Deck left, and porkie wont let me have even a cube if i din 'gou-gou shou' (promise) tat i will bring her go buy the 'stock' tomolo. and we searched hi n low for it last week... both choice dailieseses in kuching DIDNT HAVE THIS WOR! so ended up, we bot it from bolibard! haha... so, have to go again tomolo for her to stock up! tsk tsk tsk...

adush...

my god... wad is becoming of our ministers nowadays herh?
(from the star online, Tuesday January 1, 2008)

I am the one in the sex DVD, says Chua (updated)

LABIS: Health Minister Datuk Seri Dr Chua Soi Lek admitted he is the politician in the sex DVDs circulating in Johor.

In a press conference here Tuesday, Dr Chua said the girl is his “personal friend”.

He apologised to the Malaysian public, his supporters and colleagues.

He said he did not make the tape himself.

Dr Chua said he will not resign over the sex DVDs. He will leave that up to Prime Minister Datuk Seri Abdullah Ahmad Badawi to decide.

“I have seen the Prime Minister, Deputy Prime Minister Datuk Seri Najib Tun Razak and MCA president Datuk Seri Ong Ka Ting and I have personally apologised to them,” he said while reading from a one-page statement during a press conference here Tuesday.

Dr Chua, who was clad in a yellow batik shirt, added that he had met up with Abdullah on Monday.

Asked about the reactions from Abdullah, Najib and Ong, he said that it was better to get a reaction from them as he cannot comment on their behalf.

Dr Chua vowed to continue carrying out his duties as a minister, MP and party leader.

Asked about his political future, Dr Chua said: “I leave it to my party members, leaders and the Malaysian public to be the judges. It's not for me to speculate.”

The sex DVDs, on two discs, show Dr Chua and a woman engaging in various sexual antics. The two DVDs had been circulating in Muar, Tangkak and Batu Pahat over the past few days.

The existence of the DVDs was first reported in the Chinese dailies on Sunday while a Bahasa Malaysia daily reported about it Monday.

<----- my 'comment'!

****************2nd part (3 january 2008)****************

i cannot help it. i rili think he deserves it! hahah... and i am certainly one of the 'people' in the star online's : 'PEOPLE WANTED ME TO QUIT'.

THE RESIGNATION

Q: Datuk Seri, why did you change your mind after 24 hours?

A: Well, after I made the confession, I hoped Malaysians would be able to accept my apology. But unfortunately, based on the feedback that I have received, I observed that Malaysians were unable to do that. Some Malaysians can be said to be “holier than thou”. This means they are all ulama (religious teachers). (just becoz he was caught in the act, sudenly evyone who does not 'support' his act is a religious teacher! wayyyy to go, man!)

A: I thought it would be a bold move. ()(wud he admit if ppl cudnt recognize him in those vids? hmmm, i RILI wonder... hmmm....) Because my character is that I dare to fight, I dare to say and I dare to bear responsibility to the people. Some people said I should deny it. That I did not do it. But it has affected the party and the Government, that is why I chose to admit (...because if i do not admit SOON ENUF, later ppl will also know tat its me in there? so i better try to act 'good' by confessing before they condemn me?). But it seems honesty does not always pay. The people still cannot accept it. (oh, shud we pity u then? for being SO honest? next time, try to be honest in your relationship with ur wife FIRST, before telling ppl about honesty. wudnt tat be better? btw, honest = not cheating = not cheating on your wife, maybe?)

yea, maybe like cyn commented, its just plain unlucky for him to be caught & publicised while many others doing so go undiscovered. but then again, he was a leader. leader leads, ppl follow... supposedly!